Post hysteroscopy... Pre final consult

So on Friday at 12:30 we go for our final final consult. Yes I meant to put an extra final. My hysteroscopy went well. Dr did an X-ray while I was under to get a good idea of my uterus capacity. It's certainly smaller than average but he is confident that one baby is possible. The risks are the same... Pre-term labor, c-section, breech baby, and possibly 2nd trimester miscarriage. There is a possibility that ill need a pregnancy to stretch the uterus prior to carrying a baby full term. That scares me. It's like pregnancy one makes a way for pregnancy 2. We may be mourning one loss and celebrating birth of that babies sibling. Wildness. I pray we don't have to travel that road. Thing is the dr said the only way we know is by getting pregnant and seeing how far my unicorn stretches. Unicorns are magic. We need some magic. Big time. 

Side note... While in recovery I was thanking the nurse for her role in my becoming a mother. She thanked me but I could tell she was not taking me seriously. I became super concerned that all the staff that I had repeatedly thanked w/every sincer fiber of my being thought it was just the anesthesia talking. I'm still frustrated about that. Maybe ill write a letter. So they know I'm lucid and grateful!

Friday Chady and I both go in. We'll see dr. Loy. He'll tell us what we do next. Then we'll meet w/the nurse to go over the meds. Then financial person to find out how much I need to write a check for.  I was instructed to keep taking birth control.. I will skip the placebo pills so I won't get my period. I'm to arrive w/a full bladder so I assume they'll do an ultra sound to make sure all is quiet in my ovaries prior to shocking them w/meds that will put them in overdrive. 

At this point it's all assumption. I'm definitely excited. The surgery was the last big hurdle to jump that could have caused the process to stop completely so we are both relieved that literally everything and more has been looked at by the doctor. He has seen every millimeter of my reproductive system inside and out. That's comforting to know that we still have the green light to pursue a biological child. 

I've been asked why not adoption. 6 months ago before we knew we couldn't have a bio kid w/o ivf we had talked more about adoption than ivf. We never needed ivf b/c there isn't anything wrong. That news changed our thought process. God has blessed us with the means to do ivf at least for 2 cycles w/o going into debt. For that I can't express in words how thankful I am that a way is being made. From a financial standpoint ivf may allow us to have more than one child at a lower cost than one baby via adoption. The gamble is in the number of attempts. No one knows the answer there but we have to keep taking steps towards this desire. Doing nothing does nothing. One must have faith in any step. I truly believe that there is no right or wrong choice here. I also believe that there is nothing wrong with wanting a bio baby. I'd be kidding myself  if I said it doesn't at this point make a difference. I think there is a huge chance that  we will adopt one day still. Maybe not a newborn. Maybe we'll know when it's time just like we know that it's time right now for ivf. So that's that. More once we have the final consult.