Moody blues

I'm a little disheartened today. Can't shake it though I've only been awake for an hour.  It makes me angry that its so easy for others and my journey has been such a hardship. I hate infertility. Today is just a reminder of how hard the last almost 5 years has been. Today hurts my feelings all over again. Hoping I can shake  it off as today is also potentially day 9-10 of our pregnancy. Though the embryo is not inside of me it will be soon. I need to stay at peace with our journey and not focus on how others have it so easy. Easy is probably not the best term to use but I'm being immature at the moment and just feel like bitching. Whoa is me. 

When I get this sort of down I usually dust off my bible app and see where it lands (a modern day close your eyes and flip to a random page and take whatever you read as a direct sign from God... We've all done it). It landed on Hebrews 12:1-3 and was surprisingly perfect for my defeated mood. Glad it didn't land me in the "begats", that would have been a bad joke! 

"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart. (Hebrews 12:1-3 NIV)"