Getting warmer

Had to double the estrace two days ago and boy howdy does it make me feel terrible. I've had a constant headache. It'll be worth it in the end so we soldier on. I just feel like my poor endurance levels are waning and I can start to feel my emotions waxing. On Friday I have to quadruple the dose of estrace so I've resigned myself to the thought that I might be very wacky until this med protocol is over. Ironic part? I have to take estrace until week 12 of the pregnancy! Oh lawd! I will walk through fire to fight for my children before and after they arrive. 

It's looking like (as best I can tell) we should be doing the transfer by the end of next week or beginning of the following week. 

My next visit is considered pre-op. I'll get some prescriptions and the Dr will do the ultrasound scan to confirm that my lining is ready. My visit Tuesday went perfectly. Thank God! I knew before I went it that it would. If its taking a toll on my emotions and giving me a wicked headache I imagine its doing a beautiful job on my lining. Sure enough that lining was nice and thick after only a week! 

I think in part I know this cycle (which has kinda lasted since April) of injections at 6am every morning for weeks on end plus working the midnight schedule (to decrease the amount of time I have to take off of work) is coming to an end. It's like I feel like I can relax a little now. That relieving feeling though comes with an extra side of emotions that I just wasn't ready for. I've been visiting my dock almost every day to watch the birds and the lake do their thing. It's calming. It's spiritual. It's exactly what I need. 

Just take it a day at a time. I will report back on Tuesday after pre-op to update on how my system is taking the quadruple dose and what we'll be doing next.