What I've been meaning to do is sit down at the computer (which barely happens) and write my stream of consciousness. Just free write about my pregnancy.
I don't know that the perfect time to do that will come so I'm improvising. We are en route to a wedding and I can zone out for a bit and type into my phone. No, I'm not typing and driving!
The 1st trimester was full of equal parts excitement, disbelief and fear. The fear has gradually subsided as I've progressed. With my small uterus I knew that though the 2nd trimester is supposed to be the easiest of the 3 it would be scary due to the risk of pre-term labor. Well I've make it to 24 weeks and believe it or not, if Oliver came today he'd have a good chance of survival. Now while I'm not breathing any huge sighs of relief I am comforted to know that he isn't doomed if he did come now. Babies born this early though they have a good chance of surviving also face a multitude of up hill battles neurologically, with their respiratory and other potential developmental delays. Given that my unicornuate uterus is bigger than most UU ladies I am getting more confident by the day that we'll make it to 37 weeks.
Moving on out of the fear zone. This baby moves pretty much 24/7. I'm going to try to post the video of him kicking at 22 weeks. No one believed that I could see him moving so I patiently waited with my camera ready and shocked a few folks. I was also told that there was no way I felt him for the 1st time at 12 weeks. People are silly. He stays on the right side 98% of the time and has recently started laying horizontally, stretching so far out on the right i feel like he's trying to wrap around me. It's wild! I absolutely love it. I could lay in the lazy boy for hours and just feel this kid dance. I don't think the wait and infertility would make it any different but who knows. I just am loving every minute of the 2nd trimester. In the 1st I was afraid to be anywhere but Geico and home. I felt like I needed to check for bleeding all the time and not having an escape plan when being out with chad or a friend really made me uncomfortable. I haven't bled since week 9 thank God.
If I could bottle the 2nd trimester hormones I would. Even when I'm angry I'm oozing with happiness. I'd live in the 2nd trimester. I'm walking pretty much every day and feeling lots of extra energy and gumption to get things done. I hear that I won't be quite as stoked in the 3rd trimester so that gives me an extra push to wrap up as much as I can in the next 4 weeks.
After my next appointment I'll start seeing the doctor every 2 weeks. Can't believe how quickly we've gotten to this point. Hooray for 6 months of Oliver Gray!
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