Nerves

I should probably look at the last entry before writing this up but I don't feel like it and I'm pressed for time. First off thank you to everyone that is so interested and concerned and rooting for the ivf to work! So much support is fantastic. 

I'm writing in a very weary mood which I'm not sure is best but I figure it has its place so I'm acknowledging it today. I had a visit last Thursday. Good and mediocre. My lining was too thick but the 3 cysts were completely gone. I was so relieved about the cysts. So happy that my body was listening to me. I've been visiting the water every day to throw my stress in and breath back calm and peace. A dear friend with whom I don't think I could possibly respect more suggested that I visit the water and tell those cysts they were acknowledged and now they had no place in my life. It was one of those moments that I realized I always run to the water. Since I was able to drive I have gone to the water and gotten lost in the current. It was the perfect advice and now no more cysts. Unfortunately i can't move to the next phase til I shed that damn lining. I've been feeling like I'd start my period since Thursday afternoon but nothing yet and I have a repeat visit Tuesday morning. It's stressing me out. It's like the same scenario as last time except they gave me a week not 5 days! I'm pleading with my body, bargaining w/God trying everything to start and nothing. It has to come tomorrow. If it doesn't I fear that we'll have to start over a 3rd frozen transfer cycle. Thinking about it makes me feel very tired. Hoping for a flow.