Actually I've not yet turned into the Incredible Hulk. I started stims (menopur and follistim) on Thursday 3/21/13 and its now Saturday night. the only side effect is a persistent headache. I'll take headache over meanness and mood swings any day. I was so worried that given my horrible side effects from clomid upping the anti to FSH would be an obvious emotional onslaught but I'm good. Feeling even, balanced and calm. I wasn't mentally or spiritually in the same place 2 years ago so perhaps the clomid effects hit harder b/c I was standing on the edge of the cliff so to speak. I was running emotionally hot and heavy and I had sever anger rise up in me like I've never felt before. Chad was literally afraid of me and I didn't blame him. I about lost my mind and all the while we're supposed to be having sex to make a baby while I'm picking on him every time he breathes off rhythm. Damn you infertility and your irony... So headache? Yeah I can deal with that!
Went in bright and early this morning for blood work. Nurse called back and said at this point my levels should be b/w 100 and 150 and mind were 151 (score!). She said to stay the current course dosage wise and give myself an A+ for good hormone levels. I go back Tuesday morn 3/26 to have more blood work and a follicle scan (ultrasound) they'll count em up and measure.
Here's the wild part that I'm still in awe about. I've been taking the stims for 2 days and my estrogen was at 151. Back when we were doing letrozole for the IUI's they'd do blood work and follicle scans on about day 13 and hope for the range to be b/w 75-100! I'm at 150 on day 3! These meds are no joke. I'm just shocked at how quick they take hold. Excited to get to see the follicles on Tuesday for sure. That will be a thrill. Potentially we could be doing an egg retrieval by next weekend. Wildness. Excited and Confident.
I was discussing my hearts thoughts with a dear friend who has gone through all the same things we have and I was telling her that this is not like anything else on the infertility ladder. One must start with confidence and hope that it works on attempt #1. With the iui's being unsuccessful that felt very similar to trying on our own and not getting pregnant. This is a whole different ball game. Not only are we hoping we get knocked up on the first cycle but all this prep is about our future family planning too! It's for a brother or sister in a few years. Obviously we want every part to be as successful as possible so this process doesn't need to be revisited. Clearly it's important that all goes well from a emotional, spiritual and financial perspective.
Below is a pic of the meds that my dear husband laid out for me so when I got home from work I could see that all were accounted for and double checked by chad. It was the nicest gesture. I was flipping out about getting them in the mail and he knew he needed to go through each one, take inventory and check each for their refrigeration needs. Though that spread looks like a lot there was more in the fridge (I had earlier cleaned out a "fertility droor" for the ones that need to be kept cold. He's a good man.
Below is a pic of the meds that my dear husband laid out for me so when I got home from work I could see that all were accounted for and double checked by chad. It was the nicest gesture. I was flipping out about getting them in the mail and he knew he needed to go through each one, take inventory and check each for their refrigeration needs. Though that spread looks like a lot there was more in the fridge (I had earlier cleaned out a "fertility droor" for the ones that need to be kept cold. He's a good man.
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