this blog needs an ending. i'm tired of writing in it. kinda obvious i realize since i haven't written in quite a while. i never really thought about how i'd end it. i didn't picture writing then ending happily or sadly or indifferently.
i'm just done with it.
everyone that reads my blog that was going through infertility as well has gotten pregnant. maybe that's part of why i don't feeling like blogging about infertility anymore... i kinda feel that "my job is done" sort of feeling. A big part of my need to make this blog was to help others. Now I've gotten to rejoice with many struggling infertiles in their single blessings and even double blessings (I have 3 friends this past year get preggers w/twins! God bless fertility treatments!). I've also mourned with those who have gotten to experience the joy of a positive test but lost that joy within weeks to misscarriage. I know a lot of you girls read this and you know how much I love and appreciate our friendship whether new or old.
I'm not a people person. People suffocate me quickly and lately I've been seeking more and more solitude. There is a season for everything. I'm entering into a new season and this one doesn't include fertility blogging.
Another big reason for this blog was just to vent. We are at a place now where my venting mechanism has gone dry. I'm not mad about that I'm just moving on into a different phase of reality. I don't want to talk about it. I don't want people feel like they have to ask "how I'm doing" in that way that's borderline condescending. I don't need my issue to be anyone else's issue. I've got way more stuff to do than just be infertile.
I'm considering starting a new blog about my views on politics and religion and my unconventional views about both. We'll see.